Sha’Carri Richardson Was Ready to Take Concerning Life Decision After Her Mother’s Death in 2021: ‘Why Am I Here?’

“I’m still here.” Those three words held the weight of a broken heart and the strength of a warrior’s will. Just days after losing her biological mother, Sha’Carri Richardson stood before the world and told them not to ask for pity or praise but to declare that she was choosing to keep going. Choosing to chase her dreams with her soul in pieces. Choosing to run—not for glory, but to honor the woman whose absence had left a void too deep for words. She wasn’t asking for a medal. She wasn’t asking for applause. Nor did she just want to make her family proud. To make her mother proud. And then, something extraordinary happened. 

In the summer of 2021, at the U.S. Olympic Trials, Sha’Carri Richardson did the unthinkable. Days after burying one of the most complex and important figures in her life, Sha’Carri Richardson stormed down the track and crossed the finish line first in the women’s 100 meters. The world blinked. How could someone carry so much grief and still fly? But every miracle carries a cost.

Just as the world was beginning to celebrate Sha’Carri, it all came crashing down. Her drug test came back positive for THC, the psychoactive component in marijuana. The celebration turned into condemnation. She was suspended for one month, missing the Tokyo Olympics. Her dreams—postponed. Her pain amplified. But what the world didn’t see was the price she had already paid long before that.

In a 2023 interview with Reem Abdalazem, Sha’Carri revealed what few had known—after her mother’s death, she lost the will to live. She was winning races, yes. But inside, she was falling apart. “Losing that connection with my mother really trapped me,” she admitted. “She was supposed to be my world, and suddenly she was gone. I kept asking myself, ‘Then why am I here?’ It really took me to a very dark place… and I tried to commit s******.” There was love there—complicated, layered, real.

In that same press conference in 2021, Sha’Carri had said through tears, “I want to thank her [Sha’Carri’s mother] for bringing me into this world. I respect her and love her. I know she loves me.” That love, even if scarred by time and pain, shaped everything she was becoming. It was the echo in her stride, the fire behind her eyes. And in the depths of her darkness, she found light. She found home, not in a place, but in people.

Sha’Carri’s aunt, Shayaria Richardson. Her grandmother, Betty Harp. It was Grandma Betty who stood by her since Day 1. “No matter what I did,” Sha’Carri said in 2021, “no matter if it was good, no matter if it was bad.” And Aunt Shay—her gentle strength reminded Sha’Carri that one’s beginning doesn’t have to define their path. “You may not come from ideal circumstances,” she said in 2024. 

“But at the same time, it’s not where you start … it’s the direction you want to go. I wouldn’t have even started running track if it wasn’t for my mom,” she continued. And the direction Sha’Carri chose? Forward. Fiercely. Boldly. Beautifully. Even now, four years later, the memory of the Olympian’s mother walks with her. It showed again this week, through tributes, gestures, and quiet moments of reflection. The woman who brought her into this world is still a part of her every step, every sprint, every triumph.

Sha’Carri Richardson remembered her mother in a special way 

On June 5, Sha’Carri Richardson opened her heart to the world once again. Marking four years since the passing of her mother, she turned to Instagram—not for attention, but for remembrance. In a series of three poignant photos, she honored the woman who shaped her path, writing, “4 years since my mother transitioned from this physical world, I am grateful for a mother that made decisions for me to be the young lady I am today !”

The images spoke volumes. Bright red balloons floated gently into the sky, their bold color standing out against the calm blue above—each one a vessel of emotion, each one a whisper to the heavens. One balloon bore a message that needed no embellishment: “I love you.”  In her Instagram story, she shared a quiet, powerful moment: a video of the balloons ascending into the open air.

There was no crowd, no noise—just the soundless grace of grief and love intertwining. She captioned it, “Until we laugh again.” It wasn’t just a tribute to her mother. It was a love letter to her younger self—the girl who once stood shattered by loss. And it was a declaration from the woman she’s become—resilient, grounded, and rising. Sha’Carri’s tribute wasn’t about what was lost. It was about what lives on.

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